Today I said goodbye to a very special person. It will most likely be the last time I see her this side of heaven. Although she has been given a bit longer to live, she is being moved too far for me to see her again.
You often think that you have all the time in the world to spend with people you love. You think there will be more moments to enjoy. You put off so much that should be done now, in this moment. And then reality hits, and you realize this moment is the only moment you have.
We had many special moments, but I also have moments I wish I could regain. Moments I could have chosen to spend with her, on the phone or in person, but I chose to be busy with things that don't matter. Of course, at that moment, I thought they needed to be done.
I hope that she knows I have cherished every moment. I hope that the rest of her moments are as peaceful as it was today.
Meanwhile, I have learned, I need to pay more attention to the matter of moments.
Moments are hard to hold on to and to notice when we are in them. Often we will have the ones we look back on and wish we'd done something different. I sometimes wish I had taken more moments with great grandma even though she didn't remember who I was and couldn't hear much. I was away in college when she passed. I am trying with my stepdad's mom but with alzheimer's not sure how it will go, but I will still try to have moments.
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